My big girl

Emily is officially in a toddler bed. I thought it was going to be this long, stressful, drawn-out process to transition her to a big girl bed...nope. First night I put her in, she slept the whole night without problems!!! Way to go Monkey!!!

Speechless

I haven't blogged in awhile...

Alot has happened the last couple weeks...

Yet I don't feel any desire to sit here and type it out...SO...here is the short version:

1. Blain left. I cried. Madison cried. We are praying 7 months go by quickly.

2. We moved. And we LOVE our one story house. Thank you to everyone who helped.

3. Started my next class. Ethics. Wicked-hard.

4. My cousin moved in to help while Blain is deployed. Bless her heart.

Wow...that was the short version.

stress

I feel like we have so much going on right now. I feel like time is moving ahead without me. I am always feeling tired and when I stopped to think about it...my life at this moment can be described in one word...stress. I am stressed.

Blain is deploying. It's coming up way too fast. Days.

Emily's MRI showed a 4.5 x 5 mm cyst on her pituitary gland in her brain. We see her Pediatric Neurologist next week. The thought of a cyst (benign or not) in her beautiful head scares me.

I want her to speak her first words SO bad.

We are moving into a one-story house next weekend. It is such a blessing, especially for Emily, but the thought of doing it without Blain makes me a little sad.

Just started my Ethics class. I'm only a week in and it's already the hardest one I've taken.

I have to remind myself on a daily basis that God never gives us more than we can handle. He will never burden us with challenges too great. As long as we open up our hearts and surrender it all to Him, we will always make it through.

Lord, I surrender it all to you right now. Help me to be open to recieving your love all through out the day. Thank you for sending me friends and family who support me. Bless our family as we travel through this tough time in our lives. Lift us up when all we feel like doing is falling down. Thank you for loving us unconditionally. Amen.

2

Have you ever had a moment where you were stopped directly in your tracks and you thought "How did this happen?"...

That happened to me yesterday. Emily turned 2 years old and I find it so hard to believe. It is so true what everyone says...time goes by faster the older you get. I remember so vividly every moment of the day she was born. I remember how tired I was getting up in the morning, finding out that I had no reason to get up that early because they rescheduled my induction for later in the day. I remember the look on my parents' faces when they came walking through the door. I remember finally heading to the hospital and not being able to talk because I was so nervous. I remember the pain soooo well. That part is a myth by the way...not everyone forgets all about the pain of childbirth. I think maybe it's because I went through both deliveries with ZERO medication and so the pain is so much more present in my memories. I remember the doctor immediately placing her in my lap, I remember the shock of finding out it was another girl (only because while I was pushing I felt like it could very well be a boy), I remember being glad that we chose to once again NOT find out the sex of the baby before hand.

And that face. The beautiful face with the pointy elf ears and the cone head. My girl.

And now she is TWO years old. How did this happen? Where did the time go? What have I been doing for the past two years? Oh...that's right...I've been changing diapers, washing spit on clothes, going to doctor appointments, taking walks, trips to the park, moving twice, worrying every day...you know, the usual.

Life has been good to us and I am so thankful for Emily. A little girl that keeps me on my toes each day and who shows me what true love is all about.

Happy Birthday Emily! You are so loved.